how to discribe my father s characator seemed very easy in the past.but , maybe i ve got wrong and been wrong all the time.

　　in the past , when my nature mother was still living with us , he had a savage mood which often frightened both my mother and me .after they got quarrelled , a fight was unavoidable .maybe a fight contains misunderstandings of both ,but in those day ,i thought that it was all my father s fault.i hated him! he was the ghost in my life!

　　when i was sixteen ,my life changed because of the death of my mama.she was badly hurt in a home accident, and though the god she believed had no power to rescue her.from then on ,my figure change a lot ,from a naughty, passionate boy to a quiet and diffident boy .i didn t want to talk with anyone .my father ,however was seriously flustrated, he also had to take the reponsibility of bringing me up.during that very hard moment , on one hand ,he had to stand up for the tragedy, on the other hand ,he had to work hard to support my education. as in that time ,all me got in hand was only 3000 yuan , if i succeeded in entering a higher school ,at least ,would cost 7000 yuan a year,that s not a money of bit.

　　i ve always thought that i must be the most unfornate one in the world .when i got frustrated in life , i d nowhere to explain as i d been used to express my heartache to my dear mother and now she wasn t there .every time i saw the mothers and sons pass aside me ,i felt so sorrow ,and i knew how longly i was!i was sure indeed i was the most sorrow one !

　　but to my father, how did he feel when he lost his beloved? maybe then i was really to youny to observe .i only knew he was very very sad .i heard that when my mother was in hospital ,he laid down on his knees to ask help from the doctors,and when the doctor shaked his head ,he nearly wanted to die with her!someone said that though they quarrelled a lot , but they really loves each other . before those days ,i only get closed to my mother , and once they quarrelled or fighted , she would hated him , however , to stand with here, i hated him day by day , sometimes i even felt himjust like the devil in my life . i ve never thought he would be in such a sorrowness.

　　my aunts would come and see me every month . they taught me that i should do whatever my father want me to , till i ve been a man ,could get away from him . i knew what they meant.i often got on uneasy with them ,and i hated them to keep an should eye on my father .to me they really had a pity on or felt some responsibilities. but i hated pity most !

　　nothing can be believed from the other s mouths.i made the conclusion in the past time . many a person was fond of discussing the others . they got happinesses from the department of other families.i think they are all the mut , fool monkeys !nothing can be more stupid!!!i understood him with the increasing of my age.

　　i changed my opinion to him during that very hot summer .he was working in a eletrical line factory. during those unusual hot days ,he worked 10-15 hours a day for an extra income. but he fell ill seriously after that , despite of the ill he insisted on working yet. at last he illed to bed , taking a medicine care. i could think about the heavy burden on his shoulders,and i certainly got shocked by his complete change frome a devil to a dear hardworking father!

　　如何描述我父亲的性格似乎很容易在过去，也许我有错，错了所有的时间。

　　在过去，当我的自然母亲还和我们住在一起，他有一个野蛮的情绪往往害怕我的妈妈和我。他们吵了一架后，战斗是不可避免的。也许战斗包含误解的，但这些天，我认为那都是我父亲的过错。我讨厌他！他是我生命中的幽灵！

　　当我十六岁的时候，我的生活改变了，因为我的妈妈死了。她在一家事故中严重受伤，虽然她相信上帝没有力量去救她。从那以后，我的身材发生了很大的变化，从一个淘气的，充满激情的男孩安静而羞怯的男孩。我不想和任何人说话。我的父亲，但是严重受挫，他还得负责把我。非常困难的时刻，一方面，他不得不站出来为悲剧，另一方面，他不得不努力工作来支持我的教育。在那个时候，我拿到手只有3000元，如果我成功进入了一个更高的学校，至少，要花7000元一年，这不是一个钱的位。

　　我一直认为我一定是世界上最不幸的人。当我在生活中受挫，我无法解释我是用来表达我的心痛，我亲爱的妈妈，现在她已经不在了。每次我看到母亲和儿子过在我身边，我感到如此悲伤，我知道我是孤独的！我相信我是最悲伤的人！

　　但我的父亲，当他失去了他心爱的感觉他如何？也许我真的年轻，观察。我只知道他很伤心。我听说，当我的母亲住院了，他跪在地上向医生寻求帮助，当医生摇了摇头，他几乎想和她一起死！有人说，虽然他们吵了很久，但他们真的爱着对方。在那些日子里，我只得到封闭，我的母亲，而一旦他们吵架或打架，她会恨他，但是，站在这里，我恨他一天又一天，有时我甚至觉得他就像我生命中的魔鬼。我从来没有想到他会如此悲伤。

　　我的阿姨会来的，每个月看我。他们告诉我，我应该做什么，我的父亲要我，直到我一直一个人，可以离开他。我知道这意味着什么。我经常有不安的他们，我恨他们不应该关注我的父亲。我真同情或感到有责任。但是我恨最可怜！

　　没有什么可以相信，从其他的人。我在过去的时间里做出的结论。许多人喜欢讨论别人。他们从其他家庭部门得到快乐。我想他们都是物，愚蠢的猴子！没有什么可以更愚蠢！！！我理解他，随着年龄的增加。

　　我改变了我的看法，他在酷热的夏天里。他是在一个电线厂工作。在那些不寻常的炎热的日子里，他为一个额外的收入，一天工作10-15小时。但他生病严重之后，尽管生病他坚持工作的呢。最后他病在床上，以医药保健。我能想到的在他的肩上沉重的负担，我肯定了他的完整的变化震惊从魔鬼亲爱的勤劳的父亲！